A State designed blueprint

In the 60s, the Dutch State replaced parental care with a forced, extreme attachment to peers—a survival mechanism designed by the institution itself. In total isolation from adults, infants were warehoused in silence.  These were experiments with institutional education that we now label as inhumane. This deliberate "horizontal attachment" created a lifelong sensory and emotional blueprint. What was a desperate act of survival at age two and three has become a permanent, daily reality—manufactured by the State, then used by that same State to condemn the survivor.

Thirteen Years of Systematic Torture
The forced blueprint was followed by almost fourteen years of extreme (gender-based) violence, neglect  and systematic torture within foster care. Any expression of the attachment patterns the State had inflicted was met with brutal punishment, permanent physical injury, and forced social isolation. This was not a failure of care; it was a calibrated system of destruction.

The State as a Gaslighting Machine
The ultimate cruelty is the orchestrated erasure of truth. In 1996, the Public Prosecution Service (OM) deliberately discarded my criminal complaints. For decades, I have been systematically excluded by healthcare providers (GGZ), state institutions, and advocacy groups. This is the second betrayal: being labeled "deviant" and cast out for the very scars the State forced me to grow.

Official Recognition
While this archive stems from lived experience, the underlying facts are officially recognized. I am acknowledged as a victim of the most severe category  of institutional violence by the Dutch State (C6) and relevant authorities like Pleegzorg Nederland and Raad voor de Kinderbescherming. This archive also documents secondary state violence by the police with violations of Article 3 ECHR.

Sixty Years of State-Imposed Isolation

Six decades later, the "horizontal attachment" forced upon a three-year-old remains a daily, all-encompassing reality. While the State protects other vulnerable groups, I am left outlawed—systematically excluded from healthcare and advocacy. There is the haunting silence of the government: they have no answer to the lives they erased. This archive is my final protest against a State that first manufactured the tragedy, and now chooses to ignore its lifelong consequences. The silence ends here.