"If the state  betrays your existence, the fatherland ends."

'The betrayal of the barbed wire'  acrylic on canvas 30 x 40 cm

Description: At three years old, while in residential home, I went on a group walk and saw a beautiful rose in a meadow. As I reached for it, a horse came running to me,  I hurried  back in fear  and barbed wire slashed my head from front to back. Despite the blood streaming down my face and intense pain, the staff forbade me from crying and forced me to complete the entire walk. My reward for staying a group member and hiding my pain was a lollipop.

Foster Care as hired Hate Machinery of the state

 watercolor on paper 20 x 30 cm

Cut out lives pastel, charcoal on canvas 60 x 80 cm

Please let me in acrylic on canvas 40 x 50 cm

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Let it  pee!

mixed media on paper 20 x 30 cm

Description: In my time in foster care it was   prohibited to use the toilet when you needed it. You had to ask their permission,  which they could deny as they pleased. If you were allowed,  they  stop-watched to see if you were within their two minutes, if not they punished with stick blows. 

Arriving in adulthood

Photography

A baby

ink and watercolor on paper 30 x 40 cm 2020

Born under a wrong rainbow

acrylic on paper 20 x 30 cm

After the evening prayer

mixed media on paper 30 x 40 cm 2019

A female beast,  eating boys

Mixed media Tim, Alex, Jimmy 2023

Selected foster parents

pastel on paper 50 x 65 cm

Foster fathers were selected from the police force or the army because they could use real violence and suppress others and fight. Their violence was mainly with hard sticks from the household.